I'm sad ):

They say if you get extremely happy, you'll get sad the next day. I don't get where the logic is but here I am, experiencing it. Again. Maybe it just prove that nothing remain forever, happiness and sadness. Both.

Currently I'm feeling a little sad. I rarely write when I'm in a good state. Sadness bring myself to write. You know what, I am currently writing now and then thinking of what is it that makes me feel sad, I suddenly lost cause. And the feeling slowly fade. That's writing to me. Never underestimate the power of writing (:

I had a strong urge to write just now but now where have they been??! The feelings comes unexpectedly, just before I think they've gone, they come back. Again. I'm tired ):

What should I do? This mood swings is killing me. I wanna sleep all day long but then sleeping is wasting my time. I hate wasting time, they made me feel useless. I'll get sad over that too haha silly me.

There's a lot I wanna change. If only I could walk the talk. Talking is easier than doing it on your own. Maybe I was just feeling insecure about my life. I need to find a good place where I feel I belong, where I feel it so stable that I wouldn't mind of anything else. Where can I find that?

Hi.

Hey! It been ages since I write my thoughts here. Wow, how time flies. I had reread back my previous ranting. Hahahaha young soul. What are you mumbling about?

Let's just talk about what has been lingering in my mind for this quite some time.

How's life been treating me?

Well. Obviously, not as bad as I expected. If you were comparing of what my young self would think back then, not bad. Just, alhamdulillah for the progress. I'm still alive. Still progressing. Everything is moving, moving on.

Am I satisfied?

Honestly? I'm not. Trying to be satisfied but I yearn for more. Implementing the concept of being grateful isn't as easy as it seems. Am I right? There's always more that you'll be expecting. Haish. Ungrateful little me!

How am I coping?

What?! Kena dipaksa la kalau tak memang tak jalan. If I wasn't forcing myself, I'd ended up not being my present self for sure.


The key was, time. No matter how many questions you have about life, the mystery, the reasons you've been searching, it is time that will decide. To reveal each of its answer. Just be patient. And behave, most likely this would be the hardest part. To behave. So basically I just stick myself to good people, the one that will lectured me with a logical reason. That will straighten up my mind. I am still stubborn, just like the young me. Just hit me with facts, I'll straighten back Inshaallah.

I was thinking. Maybe I should write here instead of mumbling all over the socmed, this seems exciting. I wanna write more later! Hahahaha.

Let's just mengata, bergosip over here. Putting a nickname for people so it won't be so harsh. Auch! What are you thinking?! Hitting myself on my head, Don't. Even. Think. About. It.

But....I'll do it anyways.