Perfect

Playlist ada berderet lagu simple plan. Tiba tiba je? Layan jela. Stuck dekat Perfect. Rasa nak menyelongkar lagu apa yang ada dalam playlist ni, baca journal make me so-nerd-feeling-feeling-person. Walau hakikat memang nerd tapi cukuplah kot ke’nerd’an ini. Through thick and thin nerd ni payah jugak. Halahh.

                      

And do you think I’m wasting my time

There were things I want to do

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

Perancangan? Too many. Nak laksanakan tu persoalannya, terlaksana ke? Akan ke? Living up to people’s expectation. Penat. Memanglah boleh cakap, live freely. Don’t be tied with people’s expectations. Tapi, hakikatnya. Walah!  Otak tetap marathon berfikir cara nak memuaskan hati semua pihak. Dan akhirnya diri tenggelam timbul, kadang layar hidup tak tentu arah ikut arah angin yang mengalahkan hurricane apa ke nama tu? Catherine hurricane? Aaaaa I can’t remember the nama. Hahaha. Abaikan. Abaikan.

Cause we lost it all

Nothing last forever

I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Now it just too late

And we can’t go back

I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Kalau. 

‘What if’ punya game ni bahaya gila, permainan syaitan orang kata. Kalau nak ikutkan sangat perkataan ‘kalau’ tu jawapnya hidup takkan puas. Sentiasa terkenang benda lepas. Stop living in the past. Live your present. Embrace it and look forward for your future. Ada sebabnya Dia biarkan sesuatu tu terjadi pada hamba-Nya. Dia dah susun cantik cantik baik punya cerita kita. Percayalah. You’ll never know what He has planned for you. All along, it is for your own good. You’ll be surprise. In the end, you’ll thank Him for what He stopped from happen and what He let to happen.

I try not to think about the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero

All the day you spend with me

Now seem so far away

And I realise you don’t care anymore

Nothing gonna change the things that you said

Nothing gonna make this right again

Please don’t turn your back on

Can’t believe it’s torture that talk to you

But you don’t understand

Dan sungguh, cuma pada Dia tempat bermanja. When family are like strangers and strangers are like family. And macam mana bila family and strangers, dua dua tetap strangers? Dia. Pada Dia. Pedehal, Dia kan ada.

“When you think you’ve it bad, others had it worse.”

                                                                                                                                       

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